the randomness of my brain tonight.

really? it's been over a year since i last wrote a blog? whoops.
i've had a year. i wouldn't say it was a great one. or a horrible one. just a year. actually, that's not true. i would say that great things happened, and horrible things happened, averaging out to be 'just a year'.

(aside - i ALWAYS double space after a period. i just did it now. and again. now i got just one. and i always go back and fix it right away).

apparently i have grown pretty jaded in the last year... i look back on previous posts and i feel like i was way more light-hearted and excited about life than i am now. what's changed?

there are things to be excited about. traveling, friends having babies, making new friends, going to great music shows... the list goes on...

apparently this is a blog of randomness. something i remembered that made me laugh the other day... when i lived in bolivia there was one time where i was asked to teach a couple sessions of bible stories to kids during a conference of some-sort. so one that i taught on was the armor of god. for some reason, to demonstrate the belt of truth, as a visual i had huge pants stuffed with pillows and a belt on to hold it up (apparently to demonstrate that god's word keeps us from falling apart or something...)
a week or so later i hear from a parent that their child was going around the house sticking out his belly saying he 'wanted to be fat like jesus'.
revoke my teaching privileges please. i am unable to communicate anything to small children.

i've seen and done so many great things this year and in my lifetime. why do i feel like shit?
i know god works everything out for those that love him... it's hard to see in some situations though.